College

So I only just remembered something about my old plans for college.


Originally I'd planned to major in Creative Writing and be a novelist/English teacher. Originally I'd planned to stay very close to home. The plan was that I would get an apartment with Bubbles and we'd both go to the same school.

But now that's changed. I'm sure you remember an earlier post where I mentioned that Bubbles is going to move to California and be a big famous actress one day. Well, that kinda puts a damper on our plans. Because she wants to move for next school year. And I will never see her again.

What I'm learning, though, is that it scares me less and less that she will be gone. I've learned to live completely independently of "What would Bubbles tell me to do?" and "What would Bubbles think?" In fact, I have managed to move on (and most likely cling to) other people. And, I'm sorry, but I'd describe these people as people who actually want to be with me. I actually feel bad for saying that, so I'll say something much more truthful: I need to find myself and God for myself, in my own way. I need to identify things through my own experience. And I love my Bubbles dearly, but she's very .... rule-following. And, if you know me, you know that I am too. That being said, I'd like to be a little more outgoing for when I go to college. (Hopefully Frostburg State U, but at this point I'm not sure I'm getting into college.) And I believe that people like Japan and Cannon are going to help me do that more than Bubbles will. Because while Bubbles says she is always there for me --and let me be clear in this, I have NO DOUBT THAT SHE IS -- I feel it more from my "big sisters." I've never been able to say that Bubbles is like my big sister. But Japan and Cannon.... they feel like it.


Peace, love, and giant boobies.